i am a complete baby

Ok, so I’ve been trying to pretend that I haven’t been having any trouble with that tooth that I had the wonderful surprise root canal in last year.
I thought it was just me being picky when it continued to ache and ache in December. In January. But now, in February, it actually hurts a fair bit more, and aches up into my jaw.
Needless to say, I’ve discovered I have a new dentist phobia, and making an appointment to see the dentist has been … difficult.
But today I did make an appointment, and I’m going in next Tuesday to have my head cranked open again. Yay for brave me!
I am pretty freakin’ scared. Like, scared in a crying way.
I can’t even say that I’d much rather have them dig it out and fix it than continue to suffer through it. There’s something much worse about going in and choosing to lie there while they dig around and hurt me a fair bit than just suffering with an ache. I know it’s not rational or logical talk here. There is no ration. There is no logic. Just scaredness.
But the dentist lady said that what’s probably happened is that the crown ‘sits a little too high in the jaw’ and that my ‘bite is affected’. So they’ll just ‘take it down a bit’ (a couple of milimetres at most) so that it sits a little lower. Basically, the top bit of the root filling is sticking up and getting bumped a bit too much when I bite down and that this is causing pain that feels like nerve pain. It really does feel nasty.
But that’s all speculation. I’m actually going to believe the speculation because I’d much rather a bit of tidying up than having the whole thing dug out and done again.
I really wish that the anaesthetic had been more effective last time. I think, if I had to have another root canal, I’d choose a general anaesthetic. All the joking of my previous posts aside, that was some pretty scary stuff. And some pretty nasty pain.
I am a complete baby. But at least I’m tough enough to get myself in there for another appointment.